Missed my train

 I still vividly remember my days at jai hind college. Like what could a student ask for;studying in one of the best colleges of Mumbai with elite and posh crowd and that too after securing miserable marks in 12th. So it goes without saying that I was damn happy. And this time I had really decided that I would really study hard to make it up for my 12th dismal performance. And to be honest I really stood upto my resolution atleast for the first few weeks. Then I became part of the so-called happening group of our class. Well I wont go into much details of the members of the group as I don’t want to defame them because they are my friends and some of them still study there.

The only motto of our group was to live upto the “happening” expectations of our class. And as in most colleges,happening students are the guys and girls who never sits for the lectures,only dreams of completing that assignment basically doing nothing but still manages to have that I don’t care attitude and big smile on their face. And If the above description of happening guys holds true then you can call us thorough professional.

We used to spent most of our time at “MOCHA’s”,smoking hookahs,gossiping and criticizing teachers on their teaching methods inspite of not attending a single lecture. We had become critics in our own right. Soon semester exam came and it’s result came even sooner. And thanks to those first few weeks I managed to pass in 2 subjects. And the Irony was I was actually feeling proud having failed in 4 subjects and to add to that happiness was that I got 1marks in 3 subjects!!

I wont go into details about what we did in the months before our final exams as this article isn’t about that. Soon our final exam dates were announced and everyone took extra care not to show anxiety and maintain that trademark smile on their face. But everyone was anxious and nervous from within. Everyone wanted to pass.Everyone wanted to be happening next year as well!!

I studied hard the day before our exam but was still not sure if I would pass. The next day 9:30 a.m. was our first paper. Me and my friend kapil were to catch the 8:25 local from Bhayandar. We reached the station by 8 a.m. and trust me the sight of that enormous crowd waiting for that train really made my senses numb. May be coz it was the first time I was catching a train during peak time. But whatever it was,one thing i knew deep within that I would not get into this train. I decided that I would miss this train and even persuaded my friend kapil for the same. And then I had this bizarre thought of bunking our final exams. This crazy thought seemed adventurous and full of thrill. I also convinced my friend for this. The second day we did not had to convince each other. We both silently agreed to experience that thrill again. And it was decided that we wont be giving our exams convincing ourselves that as it is we would not have passed.

You all must be thinking why am I saying all this things to you. It does not change the equation of anyone’s life. But my friends this article isn’t primarily for you in the first place. It’s for my friend kapil. I am really sorry kapil because of me you also did not give your exam. And more importantly I apologise for all the things you had to go through after your parents came to know that you did not give your exams. How can I forget that day when you called and said that all these things are giving you hallucinations and sometimes even a suicidal feeling. And I really feel sorry that I could not do much to alleviate your pain. But trust me friend we would be completing our graduation together.We have learnt our lesson.

And for all those rare people who managed to reach the last paragraph,all I can say to you all is thank you so much for your time. I sincerely mean it.And if you wondering what happened to me,did my parents came to know and etc. Then freeze your thinking ‘cause fortunately for me nothing as such happened. My parents still don’t know anything about it.But yea this whole incident has a symbolic meaning to me. I think it was god’s way of telling me that you already have missed your train long back and it’s no use for a off track person like me to catch the train now.

Just to conclude,never let anyone tell you what to become,be what you are.Work towards your goal. In the end it's YOU,YOU and only YOU and it's always better if you call the shots to life.