How I screw my college life

It was 22nd June 2004.  Our 10th grade results were announced and I felt like I was the happiest person on this planet earth.  I scored 81.46% and that too without any personal coaching.  My mom and dad were very pleased and proud of my performance.  I was so excited to go to junior college!

I took science in wilson college(one of the best in Bombay).  Everything was looking smooth till the day the college started.  Friends,I dont want to bore you all with the intricate details of the first few days of my college and classroom activities.  This hub focuses on factors that led to my downfall and gradually screwing up of my college life.  So I would focus on that.

To start with,the most important factor that led to my downfall was me having a wrong notion about college.  Like most students I had this idea that college life was full of fun and no studies.  But when i sat lectures for the first few days,there were only studies and no fun.  And that really demotivated me to sit for the lectures.  The thought of sitting for lectures made me feel like a jailbird who has been denied parole.

The second important factor was,me like every human being had an urge to be an hero or anti-hero i should say.  Every student has this urge to be unique,wants other students to respect him and try to impress his friends in his group.  The same was the case with me.  And the most common way to do that was to be a rebel.  Start mocking your teachers and openly disrespect them.  I still cant believe that i actually did all this.  Because In school I was taught that teachers are like parents and I used to love and respect them the most.

The third and the most common factor found in every student is the urge to act like a "wannabe".  I still remember how i used to feel so embarassed being myself.  I always tried to impersonate something which I was not.  The cool dude tag given to me by my friends was too hard for me to let go.  And to add to that,everything i did made me talk of the town.  I was instantly famous or infamous to be correct.  Can you believe,in 11th grade,my friend samiran and I,finished our 100 marks French paper in 10 minutes and also we both were the only 2 students scoring in single digits(me getting 8 and samiran getting 2 marks) which is still a record in Wilson.

There were several other factors that screwed my college life.  But i would rather not elaborate them as these factors are different from the above mentioned factors.  The above 3 factors are found in almost everyone at some point or the other.

So my advice to everyone especially students would be to never fall for such tempting,adventurous but venomous traps.  Because when reality bites it bites hard.You have me as an example.  After scoring 81.46% in 10th grade I managed to score only 52.83% in 12th grade(By god's grace i did not flunk).  I have also attached both my results for you to have a look.  I could not even show my face to anyone for few days especially my parents.  They had such high hopes from me.  That day I realized that your lives is interconnected with many lives.  So you have to take care of them also.  But I did not learn my lesson even after this.  Only after I missed my train(i hope you have read that article) i learnt my lesson.  But I dont want anyone to repeat my mistakes and thats the only reason I am writing all this.

In the end,I would just say that be what you are.  Always follow your line of talent and not what other people want you to follow or do.  Just follow your heart and you are bound to succeed.